Grandma

lunch at vegetarian shop. felt abit weird. first time celebrate my grandma's birthday in the vegetarian economic rice shop. weird weird weird. all like just eating and eating. is it the only way when we getting old? only wait for the children to come back and celebrate with us? do we have other choice? feeling unconfortable everytime i see my grandma. she is 82 years old. can't really walk properly. have to use 'tongkat'. if she want to go anywhere we have to arrange for her. can i choose not to be like this next time? feeling no good. reaslly no good. all of us can talk talk talk but we did not really talk and understand my grandma. what's in my grandma's mind?? i dunno. really dunno. lucky she still can read newspaper. if not... i also dunno what can she do. whole day long stay at home. listening got little bit problem.